Procrastinated Determination

Well, I've had a few weeks of - life. The difficult portion that we don't like, yet it's inevitable. During these times, it's important to remember that it is temporary and the good times will return again.

Forgiveness and letting go have really paid-off, so to say. I have always had a bit of a problem being patient.   LOL, is what I'll say because that is what everyone who knows me thinks when the word 'patience' is used to describe me. Anyway, if you step on toes, you should not only step back and apologize; you should also patiently expect nothing. There is a maturity level which must be met, but if you can reach it a bit of nirvana may float your way.

You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes you get something you didn't expect.

Just be nice. And don't be afraid. And remind yourself of this the next time you fall down the rabbit hole, Alice. Don't drive the Hatter mad, he's harmless and kind.

Around the World

It's ironic how little credit you get for the countless laps of endless travel you do in your mind when the anxiety in your life is out of *ucking control.  If I could count the miles that my mind travels, I would have already circled the earth a few times.  I don't know that this is a 'disorder', well, it is.  That's not the point.  The point is you do not get credit for it -- no passport stamp, no warm fuzzy pictures, and no linguist practicamos.

Today it was beautiful outside and  I'm so damned depressed that I haven't even gone onto my front porch. I do not want to leave and I do not want to stay.  I am frozen, yet my mind is traveling.  If someone stamps it, will I get credit for the effort I've exerted today to merely stay awake and not cry? No, I won't.

Maybe tomorrow.